…..I’m afraid of the dark. and even more so afraid of being in the dark ALONE!
don’t bother telling me “there’s nothing to be scared of” or things like “that’s completely irrational, nothing has happened to you in 28 years” – it doesn’t help me. I have issues and I’m aware of them 
I just wanted everyone to know that over the weekend (mainly friday night and saturday night) you’ll all need to be around commenting and writing new blog posts that I can creep to keep my mind occupied on something other than the fact that I’ll be ALL alone….well Logan will be here too, but no Colin and NO Rex!
I always think something is going to come get me or some freaky old man is in my house…or some crazy possessed spirit is residing in my basement and is just waiting until Colin is gone so it come come haunt me…..
…I know, it’s silly. The rational side of me knows that….but the night time just makes me crazy. OH and for anyone that knows me OR if you are a crazy internet blog stalker and secretly know where I live and are now planning on coming over during this difficult time for me – know this:
1. I am unstable when I’m scared and thus resort back to the animal in me; fight or flight – usually FIGHT!
and….
2. I have this in my kitchen and I am not afraid to use it 
So yes, now you know that I’m even crazier than you already thought! Please tell me I’m not alone 
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QUESTIONS:
1. what are you afraid of?? is it anything irrational??
- I am afraid of sooooo many irrational and silly things that I couldn’t even write a list down or you would all stop reading me and tell me to get my ass to therapy
2. any tips for dealing /w a fear you just can’t seem to control??
Don't mess with a woman that's holding a butcher knife!
I am not too afraid of the dark- but then again I might be if I had a basement! Darn imagination
I am afraid of scary movies. Not kidding. I can't even watch the trailers for them!
I freakin LOVE the glint in your eyes when you're holding that knife… Makes me scared for any potential intruders… and scared for your dinner items.
@hauterunningmama – ME TOO!!! Colin always warns me (if I can't tell by the scary music) and I not only have to cover my eyes but plug my ears too! lol glad to know I'm not alone on scary freaky previews lol
@MindyG – lol ya I didn't realize I was looking so crazy and serious. hopefully the picture works and no crazies reading along will "pop in"
haha
I am not super scared of the dark, but if im in the basement alone, and its dark, I sprint up the stairs because I always think there is a murderer in my basement! I always do it! Even though i know that with three huge dogs living in my house there's no one anyone can get in, I still get freaked out. lol
I cant have my room totally dark at night either. I need my phone to be charging so there is at least a little light. But besides that im all good! Hahaha 
I'm with you, not a fan of the dark. For the most part I am ok with it because our house doesn't get totally dark because we have nightlights all over just so we can say go to the kitchen for some water in the middle of the night and not run into the couch. The one room I get a tiny bit scared in is our office because I know someone who lived in our house before and she said someone killed themselves in there. I don't know if she was messing with me or not but I always freak out for a second before I can get the light on. Keep in mind, we have lived here for six years and nothing weird has ever happened.
Also, from your previous posts about shoes to answer your answer your question I have Brooks Defyance (not sure which number). I need new shoes BAD so I might have to go look into some this weekend. Maybe we will be twins! I'll let you know!
I'm ok with the dark, but I do hate staying alone in my house (without my husband). I hear so many noises in the night!
I'm also super scared of heights. If you haven't read my Warrior Dash recap, then this might amuse you: http://itsadoglickbabyworld.blogspot.com/2011/05/warrior-dash-recap.html
Luckily I'll be racing the Ragnar this weekend, because I might of considered baking some muffins and showing up on your doorstep… my irrational fear, crazies with shiny butcher knives! Haha…
Okay, so my big, secret fear… or not so secret… is that dogs off leashes freak the heck out of me while I'm running. I know they just want to play and be friends and stuff… but a dog as big as me, bounding after me while I run is just unnerving. If I'm not running dogs are fine, because usually then they don't chase me for 2 miles of sprinting barking like they want to eat me. Anyway, there's my irrational fear.
Cec has a good one so I hope she gets on to comment soon… I'll give a little hint. She always had a hard time taking the garbage cans out to the street at night because of this…
heehee… I'm getting the giggles just thinking about it.
@Jessica @ rerunrunning – ooooh so not fair! the suspense is killing me…can't wait to hear from Cecily! and I wish I lived 2 miles away from you (a good jog to meet up) lol alas I have no friends appearing on my doorstep /w muffins! – speaking of which I still have to make Janetha's peach muffins!
I also can not wait for the Ragnar recap
do you have a team yet??
You're not alone–one of my best friends won't watch anything remotely scary (including CSI and Law&Order) because she's too scared. Sleep over at a friend's house.
When Brad is away I sleep in the Family Room coz I am such a wuss! I don't want an ax murderer to trap me upstairs and I figure I would just run through the patio door!
You are so weird. I absolutely love you. I am afraid of spiders and millipedes. Those things freak me out. And pretty much any other bugs. I hate them!! You and that knife are pretty scary too…not gonna lie! Hahah <3
@pthomas – I was raised by a medium (yep my mom) so go grab some sage and look it up on google, if someone did indeed kill themselves in there, there is probably just left over negative energy and that's what you are feeling – it can be cleansed away no problem!
and YAY – I actually may return my shoes tomorrow I found them cheaper AND the guy told me I may be happier in a cheaper different brooks shoes …so we'll see! lol we may just be twins!
@Jackie Smith (the other one)- lol I'm that friend – can't watch anything like CSI
lol and I would but I have my son too! lol gotta be the "Strong mother"
@Mary – now that doesn't surprise me – we are blood after all
I think maybe I'll just put a mattress on Lo's floor and sleep /w him 
lol
@Christina @ The Athletarian – I don't mind most bugs but centipedes and millipedes are FREAKY! – and good! I'm glad my knife psycho stare works
@Ali Mc I don't think we have a full team yet… I hope we find two soon, because I do not want to run extra miles to make up for missing members. I might have Jason talked into it… He'll probably hate me for a few days after it though.
And I don't know where Cec is… I haven't heard from her in like 3 days!!! Sometimes her internet is screwy. If she doesn't get on today… I'll just tell you her irrational fear.
Hahaha! I'm so sorry you're alone! Boo. I don't like being alone either. I don't like the noises an empty house makes. That's probably not helping you…moving on.
So, the irrational fear Jess is referring to is…ugh, I guess it is embarrassing…well, it's drive-by shootings. And yes, when I would take the trash out to the street, I would run down with the can and sprint back up through our gate to the side yard. I'm sure, a sight to see. I just can't handle the idea that I could be completely, randomly shot even in my own front yard by a passing car. Scary, right?!?!
To deal with fear, like the empty house noises, I just like to sing. Fully, out loud, like I'm having my own concert, singing. It's awesome.
@Jessica @ rerunrunning – thanks for caring so much and making sure I DID find out Cecily's secret
lol Hope Ragnar is AWESOME!!!
@Cecily @ http://www.rerunrunning.com – Oh Cecily LOL I love your irrational fear. It makes me feel normal for having one too. I could see that being scary, especially if you had just seen a movie or a drive by on the news….taking the garbage out will never be the same for me.
I wish I COULD sing aloud, but it would most likely wake Logan up. I just watched some TV in my bed till I got tired (Seinfeld) and then I ACTUALLY (kinda) slept /w all the lights out alone. lol I woke up a lot though….hopefully tonight will be better!
I'm glad we finally got her to fess up.
And I'm back from the Ragnar and all rested and ready to read blogs!! I can't wait to catch up on all yours!
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