Not A Runner – Runner

I was so worried!

….worried that I had fallen out of love with running.

I know, I know. *gasp*

It had just been such a long time off that when I finally got clearance to start again (even though I’ve gotta take it easy) I just wasn’t feeling it.

It’s hard to go back to square one. If I look at myself last year at this time to this year I see the same person. Same skill level. Sure, she can do more pushups and planks and her legs look a bit more toned but otherwise there’s been no change.

Yesterday I forced myself to follow my current training plan – for learning to run again – and I did 1.5 miles in the Altras.

…..and lo and behold – I LIKED IT πŸ˜€

*I know you guys were missing the scary close-up tready pics of me πŸ˜‰

I actually felt great! and it was a treadmill run to boot! It reminded me why I like running and that I shouldn’t care if I have to “start over” I should just utilize this opportunity Β to improve.

So the good thing about this low and slow millage is that I think I‘ve been kicking serious butt on my running form! I’m so excited. My legs didn’t hurt after yesterday’s run. I noticed I was mid-foot striking and due to the added strength training my posture was straight and my abs held in tight. YES! <—– EPIC NON-FAIL!Β 

*must be all those planks!!! HOLLAΒ 

I know it’ll get harder as I go but it’s nice to actually run without focus on time or distance :) I’ll worry about that 6 weeks from now when I sign up for my next race and create a new training plan :) then I can add slow long runs and speedwork again <—- I can’t believe I’m looking forward to speedwork! what is wrong with me?!

Anyway, the point to this rambling blog post is this:

I was scared I didn’t want to run anymore because I felt defeated and down due to my current abilities and performance but now that I’ve found a positive way of looking at thingsΒ ….

I see that I am a runner after all :)

I’ll keep running until I can’t anymore!

….and then I’ll race in a wheel chair πŸ˜‰


It’s the first day of the May Challenges – so go check them out if you haven’t already.



1. what’s your workout today?

it’s a strength day for me so I’m doing all three of the calendars and then maybe some resistance bands or weights :)

2. have you ever felt like you might not like running?? defeated?? unsure of what your plan was??

3. secret question – my anniversary is this month – if you have good gift ideas for what to get Colin email me πŸ˜‰Β 

please don’t post ideas below – in case I use them ;PΒ 

58 thoughts on “Not A Runner – Runner

  1. I’m so glad you’re able to get back to running! I felt the same way when I had to start over. But even those first few miles were amazing and reminded me that I really love running!

    • Thanks :) and I remember reading all of your hard trials and tribulations. I am going to have to take it easy – yesterday the groin was killing good thing I have TC;s new shorts πŸ˜‰ I know you love their gear too!

  2. I think that it’s ok for you to feel a little underwhelmed coming back to running. I hurt myself in December and found it to be discouraging to come back and not be where I was at. Just keep working at it. :o)

    I have an easy 5k on board for today, easy week really. Half on Sunday! Yay! If I can find the time I’m going to do some arm work. I was not feeling well last week and didn’t do any.

    Happy anniversary. I have no ideas to share, we don’t do gifts at anniversary time. Just time to go out sans family is a gift for us. :)

    • Thanks for the encouragement Sam :) I am happier now that Ive officially resigned myself to being slow ;P lol

      I still have till the 23rd for anniversary ideas πŸ˜‰ so I’ll think of something

      Have a good run!

    • The clock lunges KILLED me – I felt they were a lot. I had to do them in sets of 10 with huge breaks in between (I did the other workouts) lol

      today I did all three calendars, but that’s b/c I had the time and strength was already on my schedule. I can’t promise I’ll continue to do all three but I’ll be doing the muscular legs may for sure!

  3. I have actually discovered that my love of running has increased dramatically after running my races. All I can think about is running!
    I am going to force myself to do the may calender. I hate working my legs. πŸ˜›

  4. You got it girl – you will be just fine. I am feeling the same way – starting at the beginning is a rough road!!!!! I am gonna tackle your may abs calendar to get the other half of me in gear!!!!!! Thank you for posting them – much needed.

    • Nice job Cheyenne – it must be hard trying to get sorted out now that you aren’t on the island anymore. We’ll get fit together πŸ˜‰

  5. Hooray for falling back in love with running!

    Im trying to find every ounce in me to make sure I get to a gym tonight. Im working late these next few days and what Im doing is draining…like the second you sit down you WILL fall asleep. I woke up really early for work today, so I may keep doing that and waking up 10 mins early each day to train myself to start getting up at 4:45am and hit the gym instead of after work

    • I hear you Heather – I work every night (excluding friday) this week and it’s only tuesday. It’s hard trying to balance work, life, family and exercise! so that’s why I am a huge fan of the calendars :)

      Oh and I got your email but for whatever reason gmail keeps screwing up – so no worries πŸ˜‰ I sent off my resume today!

  6. OK, I am really starting to think we might be the same person, I was just working on my post, and I kid you not, almost the exact same! haha. AND my anniversary is today! Madness!

    I have ballet tonight which should get interesting since I ran 3 miles yesterday and my legs are jello! ALso, your abs look fab! I need to stick to the may calendar better, you’ve gotten GREAT results!

    • Oh Happy anniversary!!!!!!!!! I hope he spoils you πŸ˜‰ b/c we both deserve it and I know what you mean about us being on the same wavelength πŸ˜‰ we always have our highs and lows together xoxo

  7. Yay for running! I am starting my May challenge today. I think I am actually going to do a little of all three calendars, but mostly concentrate on abs. Thanks for the calendars!

  8. Yay so glad for you to have a rekindled love with running!

    Sometimes it’s just perfect to run just for the sake of running and not get caught up in the numbers…I need to take a lesson from you sometime :)

    I am also trying to work on my form, I need to do some core stuff, but I am horrible at doing strength training…must change that too!!

  9. 1. what’s your workout today?
    I am going to ride for an hour, swim and then do a quick core workout.

    2. have you ever felt like you might not like running?? defeated?? unsure of what your plan was??
    Yes, I have but luckily, I got out and have a great run and everything seems to fall into place again!

  10. Ugh- I totally get it! I have only been off of running for a month, but am realizing that I can’t just jump back into it and that makes me frustrated and less likely to run ;). I did have a great (yet challenging) run this morning that helped me remember my love for running. So glad that you had a great run and are feeling the love, too!

    • Jerilee you are so dang fast, I think you’ll come back fine!!!!! but yes, your words are EXACTLY how I was feeling :) am feeling πŸ˜‰

      YAY for us both having a good run

  11. Love this! I think we all at some point need a break from running. My break last year was EXACTLY what I needed to get me smarter and love running even more. I have to say today that each day I lace my sneakers up I am thanking my legs for what they can do and what they allow me to do. congrats on finding this groove again!

  12. haha. seriously friend. your excitement always brings a smile to my face! so happy for you and that the running high returned :) you are awesome!

    • Awww thanks Julia – I’ve been DYING to read your bro’s marathon recap!!!! I have to go to work but I hope it’ll be posted today πŸ˜‰

  13. I’ve definitely had those feelings before! Especially after an injury. Sometimes I think it comes from a place of “can i even do this again IF i wanted to?” I’m glad you’re back on the upswing though :)

    • sigh, that is exactly how I feel……it’s kinda like “I’ve already struggled through this part – can I push myself to do it again”!!!

      I hope so!

  14. Way to just get on the treadmill and move – so happy you are feeling better about the running, and you have a great positive energy to you, so you will be back to the mileage you are looking for sooner than it seems :)

  15. I’m really glad that you’ve managed to rekindle your love of running πŸ˜€ Whenever I have a particularly bad month and I struggle to workout much (if at all) I always find it difficult to pick it back up because I feel discouraged because I lose some of my ability.

    I did your strength workout today! Combined the May and April calendars :-) I also cycled about 4 miles which felt pretty good!

  16. Aw! Great month for you!

    I am glad you didnt psych yourself out of running. Yes – I totally felt like quitting a couple of weeks ago because I was discouraged about my progress. But I hit the grind stone and found my mojo again!

  17. You are doing awesome with strength training girl! I think my new found love for strength has definitely made running take a back burner and I’m totally ok with that…I like the way I feel much more with strength plus a little bit of running versus just running. I’m running 4 miles today and might do some at home strength!

  18. Great run Ali Mc! You are going to have abs of steel before too long with all these challenges you’re doing.

    Our anniversary is this month too!

    I just did 30 minutes of yoga and if it doesn’t feel like a sauna outside tonight then I’m going to take Lucky for a run around the neighborhood.

  19. My workout = 6.65 mi with my friend at 14+ min/mile pace – lots of talking and not as much running. Didn’t FEEL that slow, but such is life. Followed by a great lunch out. Yay!

    I’ve never liked running, but I’m working on it. I hate it less now. Still like biking and swimming more. Someday maybe I can really BE a “runner” and look forward to runs.

    Anniversary gifts are tough – we don’t tend to do much. Just cards.

  20. I’m so glad you love running again! And that’s AWESOME your form is better. You are so hard core with all of your monthly challenges and I bet you are so strong and in perfect form for running right now. I have really let my push-ups and ab work fall by the way side and it’s baaaaaddddd. Bad bad bad.

  21. you are too cute…lol. right before I got injured I felt like I wasnt feeling running as much anymore…and now that I can again I love it but its DEF hard…i’m not starting over, but I did lose some of my running fitness over that month…either way i’m just happy to not be feeling like crap when I run anymore, yikes!

  22. I honestly think we all have these feelings every once in awhile! I know that I did when I was injured, it can be frustrating but you ARE going to improve. I did! You are a smarter runner and you are in better shape!

  23. I always love running, but of course I feel defeated sometime. That comes with injury, I think. Keep going and you’ll just get stronger and better. Remember your GIANT marathon training plan you did that one time? Makes me smile :)

  24. 1. my workout today was suppose to be a 2600 yd swim.
    2. Yes, today I decided I hated swimming about 500 yds into it, and couldn;t shake it. I did man up and finsihed a 1000yds before I called it. It just wasnlt happening today

  25. YIPPPEEE!!! So glad you are back in the groove!! :)

    Also…we got your mail yesterday…THANK YOU! And I loved the Logan art on the card!! That was so adorable. Bryan loves his activeband…I will take a pic of him in it for you. He won’t let me take a pic of him in the bra. Maybe when he’s asleep I can put it on him and take a picture. HA!

  26. Looking good lady! Those planks are really working :)

    I had the same problem when I had to take time off running. I started back at it and felt SO defeated by the fitness I had already lost :( I started to dread going for runs… But once I had worked back to where I was prior, I started to feel the love again!

  27. My workout today? Lots of stretching, stretching and more stretching. Some puppy chasey. And lots of steps using a puppy as handweights. Tomorrow I’ll be running again.

  28. Yay! I’m so glad you were able to have a good run!

    I remember that defeated feeling so well. It’s tough to push through it – but ultimately worth it. πŸ˜‰

  29. I love the picture of you rejecting your running shoes! Perfect!

    I’m nursing an injury after pushing myself too hard trying to be the runner that I used to be (e.g. an okay runner) instead of the runner I am now (e.g. an out-of-shape girl). It’s not fun not being as good at something as you used to be, BUT it’s beautiful to recognize the importance of enjoying the journey, accepting where you’re at now, and encouraging yourself to grow in a non-accelerated manner! Good luck! :)

    • That sucks that you and I are in the same boat. I tried to run today and it was painful again :( so I opted to not run and wait till tomorrow.

      thanks for stopping by Becky!

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